I usually DON'T do stuff like this; I usually DON'T bring stuff up at all. I just feel like sh!t now. I had no plans to *talk* about anything while he was home. I honestly have no plans to talk about everything when he gets home for good. I, just as much as he I'm sure, want to just move on. I don't usually feel the need to hash & re-hash everything.
I guess bottom line is 2 things: #1 I'm still afraid I can't live up to what I think he wants me to be and #2 that he's going to just say screw it and decide to leave again.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
