I don't know if I should continue to DB.

[forward]

I was going to say--I did not respond to H but I did cry in the bathroom. I'm sure he knew. This wasn't what I would have wanted for a 180 but I am just feeling lousy today because of my back.

He wasn't very helpful getting D2 dressed and ready to go and it's times like this that I wonder why I want such a person in my life.

I don't understand why OW gets all this sympathy and an investment in her well-being but for me and D2, everything is a burden and bother and problem.

More and more I wonder about the person I see and start to recognize that I definitely do not want that person back. I need the new improved version--and that person needs to be substantially changed, not superficially.