We had a couple of emails back and fourth today, because H thinks i'm stonewalling him and he doesn't know what he has done to warrent it. I said it wasn't about him, it's a difficult week for me. It ended ok, he said he was sorry that he forgot about the anniversary, he'd had a bad week but that still wasn't an excuse, he said he had bought me flowers and left them at home.

They were beautiful and the best bouquet i have ever had off him. He had bought a card and written in it:

'despite what you think of me i still think you are a wonderful person and without a doubt a brilliant mother.
Our time together has been fab. I have only one regret and this is losing ourselves in the want to do better, work and money etc.
We never made time for ourselves or perhaps we just couldn't with having a full house and finiancial commitments. I have learnt a tremendous amount of values over the last 2 months. My ideals have changed and in time I will be changing the way I live.
I am sorry for the pain and agony I have caused you and the family but we couldn't have gone on the way we were and I can't carry on my current lifestyle. I have a lot to change-in time.
Between us we have achieved alot - four beautiful children with great values.
I have nothing but great and fabulous memories with you and only that one regret.
Please accept flowers - ive bought you them not because i felt i must, i've bought them because I wanted to. x '

any thoughts appreciated.

X Eve


P/A confirmed 5/03/08

03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage

T: 13
M: 8
D:20 & 17 from Previous M
S: 8 & 4
BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY
S: 13/10/07