I drafted the following email. Only a draft -- comments?
Oh, babe, I am so sorry. What the hell was I thinking? Obviously I wasn't. It just came out. I honestly don't dwell on the past all the time. I don't know why I brought that up when you are coming home and I just want us to be happy. I feel absolutely sick to my stomach and I can't quit crying now. I'm so afraid that you are going to tell me you don't want to be w/ me anymore if I can't just let go of the past. I honestly have, babe. I don't mistrust you at all - I know that you love me and want us to be together. Maybe it's just that it's coming up on a year and there have been so many reminders lately. I put on my winter coat yesterday and pulled out a card from the counselor we went to. When I think of Cade's bday party, I remember that you were just waiting for his bday party to be over last year before you finally told me you wanted a divorce. And maybe, honestly, I'm still so scared that you are going to change your mind again.
Just my opinion....NO, NO, NO!!! By doing this, you're basically telling him that it still is a big deal with you. I'm just trying to picture how I would feel about something that Miss IC said to me....if she came and said a light little apology, I would think that it was just a light little passing thought she had and slipped up...if she came back with an e-mail of what you said...then I would know that something is bothering her more than she lets on..just my opinion though
