Oh boy Red, I think all of our misery might be rubbing off on you. But if you are honest with yourself, you probably still have lots of hurt that you need to get out somehow. It's hard to go from hearing your H wants a D to all of a sudden doing a 180 and trying to become that W he wants you to be. You just need to be true to yourself. Figure out what you want and need first. And why is he drunk so much? Does he drink a lot at home?
