I f*cked up guys!

so I had to tell H that I lost the cell phone and they found it at our son's school, but it had been run over. I don't even know why I said this (maybe b/c he was calling me at work drunk AGAIN), but I said "I never liked that phone anyway" He asked why and I said "Oh, it's just a real nice reminder" and he was like "I'm lost" I said "that's how you called your girlfriend all the time" He was really quiet and finally said "I'll take that one -- probably justly deserved" then he was just real quiet again. I finally said "well you better go get some sleep" and he was really short w/ me. Guess I should have kept my mouth shut. Now I feel like crying. Why did I do that?


Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10