Pieces are Coming Together

[Torchbearer]

The ups and downs of the R (mostly my own doing right now) combined with school stress has left me recovering from my second migraine in 2 weeks. Yuck. I will be so glad when school is done and I can focus on work and my M. My body is telling me too much stress right now. And I haven't even started Christmas shopping yet.

H sent me an incredibly short and sweet email the other night that made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. It's the kind of thing I was complaining about above - that I need to hear. So maybe he is figuring it out. It's the kind of thing that'll last me a week without feeling blue.

On top of it all he invited me to see a screening of his cousin's movie (she's an aspiring filmmaker) in a nearby town. And it wasn't even so much that he invited me, but how. He said, "I thought it would be cool to go to if you're not too bogged down on your paper Saturday." Basically he implied he would go with me or he would stay home. I don't want to keep him home while I'm doing homework, but it was the sentiment. Needless to say it has given me added motivation to have this beast nearly finished by Saturday so we can both go and enjoy ourselves. I told my mom and she agrees that it would be a good and probably needed break for me.

AND, it gets better - this has been a good week. My parents asked us to join them and my brother and his family for Christmas. There is no pressure and they really would be okay if we said no or if it was just me. So I asked H and he said "sure" quite enthusiastically. Cool.

AND, it just keeps going. He tells me last night that he has put in a timeoff request at work for the week between Christmas and New Year's. This is cool because he knows I always take that week off - where I work because of the actual holiday days it means I really only take 3 days of vacation and get like 12 days off in a row (that's why I do it). He doesn't know if the time will get approved but he did put in a request for it. I didn't ask, imply, suggest or anything else. This took me by surprise and is really all his doing.

I just need to keep up my PMA. I'm really the one that gets myself worked into the down days. I think they are justifiable and even necessary, but I need to work on having more happy than sad. This week is a good start and with school nearly done for the semester the next couple of weeks should only get better.