WAW staying, I'm leaving to give her space..(2)

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GFI,

I have read your sitch. You and I have many, many similarities. Me moving out & you still home are one of the few differences. Of course the OM in your sitch is different as well & that makes it more complicated for you. I am still praying that I 'woke up' just in time to prevent this. I'm not sure but if there isn't an OM in my case, it was very close to that. I am still scared that this S is going to have a negative effect for my R/M, but if I still have periodic contact with W (thorugh the kids) and I keep doing the things I need to do, the impact will be positive.

I am keeping an eye on your thread and progress. I think you have the right attitude and I wish you the best. I believe alot of the advice you give me also pertains to you because of the parallels.

I'm so glad that the drinking in my case has ceased, I've been so busy that I rarely even think about it. What I'm worried about is when things settle down and the old 'triggers' start returning. I'm worried about how I'm going to handle it when I'm around others who are drinking. I know I can handle it around W because she means so much more to me than booze or beer. When having talk with W the other night, I expressed that when I reflect on things now, I cannot believe some of the stupid stuff I did. It doesn't make any sense to me and I'm the one who did those ridiculous things! I am so grateful now that I can honestly see how crazy I was behaving and I know that no matter what I won't ever be that person again (I don't like who I was for the past 5 years).

Anyhow, rambling now, got to get ready to go to work now. Good luck!