Had a long hysterical crying emotional call to H last night that was really hard. I told him again that he ruined my life and the kids lives. He keeps telling me to talk to my brother and my neighbor. I told him I did not want to. And that Xmas is ruined. He says he tried - his favorite statement. But he did not, I assure you. Called someone from my group who says I just need to forget him. How do you do that? I am having the hardest time, time is not healing all wounds. I will never forgive him for what he has done to my family. Family is all I ever wanted in this life, now I don't have a Husband and my kids I only see half of the time. This disposable society has got to end. It is not right.
Me 43 H 44 S-13 D-9 Separated 90 days 6/28/05 H Says he is done-10/2/06-day after 18th anniv Moved out 10/2/07-to father's house-day after 19th wedding anniv-GF now H Filed for D 7/08
