H4c and Yoyo thank you so much for taking the time to read my story and respond. It really meant alot to me. It has been so hard to move on because H is in a whole new life - new relationship, living the single life, and moved out. I am still in the old life, still in this house with the memories, still doing the same thing I have always done taking care of my D. Friends and family have been telling me from day one forget him -he cheated. But I used to say that also before it happened to me. You really dont know how you will react until it happens to you. I never thought I would beg and plead - but when you have a child it compells you to try to save your M. D has been through so much and H has no idea - hes hardly around her. I dont think he should be talking on cell to OW while my daughter is in the car - its too soon - its only been a few months and she volunteers this info to me and tells me it makes her feel bad. Hes only thinking of himself. I realize I need to get a life - all I do is sit around and chain smoke (was not a smoker before the bomb was hit) and I am not the same fun mom I used to be and my D has suffered for it. She went from an attentive mom to a mother who is always "far off" some where thinking and a father who is never around. You have inspired me to make changes - Thankyou
