I am so sorry your H seems so unwilling to try and meet you halfway on this.
It's not something I have had experience of so I have no words of 'wisdom' for you. I do know from your postings though that you are a strong caring person and your H is lucky to have you.
Have you tried talking to a DB Counselor about any of this?
((((hugs))))))
saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength