No. Haven't been okay. Been having issues with the BF... everything came to a head today... drove up to Michigan yesterday for a short-notice visit. I'm home today. Short notice visits can be... fun... or illuminating.
I've been having issues with this R for some time... I just haven't really had the courage/stamina to face the issues that have been staring me in the face... kind of did the whole bury my head in the sand thing... {phhhhmmmwwweewwwhhhhh
And then I got a guilt trip from him... and a 'you sound so clinical and distant. So that's that? Just like that, you end things? You forgive your brother, you forgave your x, but not me.'
Wow. Was that the wrong card to play with me. Because it really had nothing to do with my brother or my xH... but the relationship between he and I... and choices. There is no BLAME in that. There is nothing to 'guilt' one another over on that... no one is a rotten S.O.B.
I'm more pissed, quite honestly, that I even HAVE to hold the fcking line. GD mfer. This is what nailed me last time... my inability to hold a boundary. If I didn't do it this time... when the line crossing was so blatant...
Well. There you go. So. I'm dead calm. But I'll be okay. It's cool. Thanks for asking.
