How do you do it, find that super strength. I so wish I had a little of your strengh. Maybe that is a fault of mine, I am looking for hope, and i have tostop looking for it. Just put it away in my heart.
The distance thing is getting me, h is in and out, you know this from my stitch. Finding it hard to focus on me, I am doing some things, but they don't feel right. I too want my h back with all my heart, and i want a second chance. My h says he gave me a second change 15 months ago when we first went for therapy, but i did not know that was my only chance. H was not communicating with me so i did not know there was still problems that were eating at him. I want the slate clear and i want another chance. I know i have changed, and i want to show h all my changes. I am willing to do anything also to save my marriage as well, but some days it feel bleek
Jenny how do you do it, but what ever you are doing you go girl!! LOL !! bear
Bear, I haven't read all of your thread, but this post in Jenny's sounded like a post out of my life. My H too has said he wanted to work on the R in the past. He doesn't want to now and sees no hope. I didn't realize in the past he wanted to work, and we never had any couples therapy. I too have changed and I want my H to give me the chance to show that. I can't change him though so for now I am trying to be patient. Anyone who has read my thread knows that somedays that is very hard for me. As Kayne West sings "that don't kill me, can only make me stronger." I did buy myself a necklace after our bomb. It has a pendant that says "faith." It reminds me of my faith in myself, my H, our love and God. Maybe you might want to get yourself something as a sign of strength.
