Today's events were very interesting. He decided at 10pm last night that he wanted to take me to my C appointment. I told him only if he wanted to. So he did and showed up two and a half hours early. I kept things light but I am so guarded on what I say to him I'm finding conversation really hard. So kept asking me what's wrong. Finally I tell him nothing is wrong I am just having a hard time talking to him when everything we talk about ends up in a R talk. I told him I'm trying not to do that. I don't want to put pressure on him. (Like X-mas and simple stuff to me but not him. i didn't say this last part) Then my cell phone rang. When I hung up he starts drilling me about who was on the phone. I told him it was none of his business. I don't pry so he shouldn't either. This made him mad. So the next 30 mins are silent. When I did talk to him again I was very calm and didn't cry or anything. next thing I know he's accusing me of yelling and swearing at him. I wasn't. Honestly I wasn't.
I then had my C appointment. Which was very good today. She thinks I am doing things alright and am feeling better lately. (She is the one who recommended the DR) SO he picks me up from the C and we start driving home. He is acting like nothing happened earlier. I just went with it. He starts talking about getting me a better vehicle and going to the bank to get a loan for this SUV he saw today while I was at the C.
We get to my home and he comes in. He starts trying to get me in bed. I very politely told him that it was going what he said he wanted and I was not going to sleep with him today. So off he went. Not mad just left.
Oh and today he was trying to hint at having his brother and girlfriend stay with me over the holidays. I talked to my C about this and decided that my home was my safe place and if I didn't feel comfortable about this i shouldn't let them. The brother and I used to to talk all the time but since this has happened he hasn't called me once. So it's a no for me.
Sorry so long today. Just trying to figure this all out.
Me:32 H: 34 T: 12 YEARS M: ALMOST 5 S: 8 D: 4 S: 14 (OTHER R) SEPERATED: 03/09/07 (but wanted to work on it) NEW SEPERATION: 27/11/07 (doesn't know what he wants) MOVED HOME 12/01/08 I'm acting as if this blue sky is never going to rain down on me....Sara Evans