I feel like I'm 35 and have to start everything all over again.
Max-
Welcome to the board. I'm sorry I don't have a lot of time to post right now, but just know that you'll get a lot of great support and advice here.
I understand the feeling of being 35 & starting over. This is my H's 2nd A. Yeah, I'm going through this hell AGAIN. I was 34 the first time. I thought my life was over. It's not. I'm in no way saying that your M won't somehow work, but let's get the "35 and starting over" thoughts out of your mind, okay? 35 is still young. I'm nearly 40 and know that if my M doesn't work, as hard as it will be, I'll be okay and I'll find someone else that will love me. It will take time, but I'll be okay. And let's add that I have a D that will be turning 4, just after I turn 40. You'll be okay.
Again, I'm sorry for your hurt. I truly am. The pain sucks to have to deal with, but you'll make it. We'll help you.
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day