Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

Believe me I know this to be true. I DO. Even though I sound completely hopeless, I know this. I know it doesn't seem to be working and it makes me clingy because I am trying to hold on and what I really need to be doing is letting go. I am having a really difficult time letting go. It scares the crap out of me, because one day, I know in my heart that he is going to want back in. I fear that all this pain and agony will have hardened me by then and he will have no chance. I gave him that opportunity and he is turning it away. He has cast me aside for something that isn't real. It kills me because I know if I truly let go, it's over.