Its funny how you have this little bit of hope that it would change even when you know its not going to happen. Its hard knowing he has fallen in love with someone else while married to me. He does things with her he wouldn't do with me. It really makes you feel worthless and not woman enough. I worked so hard trying to keep things together in the wrong way. I guess more family then our marriage. at least I didn't let my kids down they are good kids. I thought I was all the way past this why does it pop back up out of no where. I usally can handle most anything but it sure affected me today. He doesn't have the lonliness or the emptiness that i feel. A broken heart is a hard one to heal. He has bee so nice lately I should have known he was just feeling sorry for me.
