Thats the way with me. I used to love it also. but my life is one big roller coaster that I would just like to ride a merry go round for a while.
It was funny. My H stopped by today going to our house to pick some things up. Like always gives me a hug. Talk about a roller coaster. He is going to be gone for the week end it will be interesting if she goes. He is meeting one of his brothers they will be around all week-end. It seems it would be weird for him because I am not sure this brother knows what is going on and if his wife is there. It won't be pretty. Is it the same for you about the time I detach and think I am so sick of him then he shows up. It does take a lot of patience. I was talking to a friend and why if i would go out with someone I would feel totally guilty and it doesn't bother them.
Hi Penny, Patience is very hard. I too like you think I'm doing a good job of detaching and here he comes again. It is very tough. It's funny how my H accuses me of being a bad person for just talking on the phone to another man and look what he has done! Unbelieveable, aren't they?
Have a great day!
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Just wanted to check in. I just got caught up on your thread and wanted to send you hugs. (((Penny)))
I'm so glad to see that you are staying strong and that you are hanging in there and pushing forward, but at the same time I'm so sad to see that you are still in this "limbo land" of sorts. Stay strong, keep your head held high knowing the wonderful woman and mom that you are, and keep forging ahead. You will win this battle.
WEll My h called today after not hearing froom him for 2 days. He wanted to go to lunch. We went to lunch and then I asked him if she had gone with him to the competion and he said yes. So I said our we financially supporting her now too. He said no and I said you paid for her vacation. He said he would be at home to talk tonight about it. Well it doesn't sound to good for my side. He must really be in love or lust with this one. He basically lives there now. Do you ever get over the feelings? It just is so hard that they can just go on with their life and I am stuck in a rut trying to pull my way out. What do you do?
I think no matter what I am going to have to file and move a head. If I have to start over it might be the only way....Boy is this hard to do ....Feeling pretty down to day after lunch. She sure has a hold on him. He still wants to talk business...
Its funny how you have this little bit of hope that it would change even when you know its not going to happen. Its hard knowing he has fallen in love with someone else while married to me. He does things with her he wouldn't do with me. It really makes you feel worthless and not woman enough. I worked so hard trying to keep things together in the wrong way. I guess more family then our marriage. at least I didn't let my kids down they are good kids. I thought I was all the way past this why does it pop back up out of no where. I usally can handle most anything but it sure affected me today. He doesn't have the lonliness or the emptiness that i feel. A broken heart is a hard one to heal. He has bee so nice lately I should have known he was just feeling sorry for me.
