Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

Ann, thank you. I can't look for reassurance from him, so it's nice to get it here. He asked me why I hadn't called Saturday night. That was the last time I talked to him. I have to admit, however, that night I was not a good DB'er, we were on the phone for 3 hours. Finally, he said "can you believe we've been on the phone for 3 hours?" I just said it didn't feel like it and then we ended the conversation. That was the last time I heard from him. I wonder if he wanted to hang out with me because he desired sex. It seems to be a topic of conversation with him. And, even though I know it's not a good idea to be talking about sex with him, it makes me wonder if now he's not so interested in it with me. He doesn't have ANY idea what I have been doing. I'm really trying to stay strong. It's hard to "fake it". Especially when the I keep pulling the ball of string away and he doesn't respond. Thank you. I know that I lean on this board too much sometimes. I should be able to give myself the pep talks by now. But, whatever works is what I'm gonna do and right now, this board is what works to pull me out.