Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

It's terribly hard to be strong on days like this. I keep going back to the night that he left and told me that he didn't love me anymore. How do people ever get over that and does that ever change back? I wish so much that he was wishing he had stayed with us. I wish that he was missing me, but I don't feel any of that and none of his actions say that any of those things are true. I use to think that him wanting to have sex with me and worrying about who I was with and if I was having sex with someone else was a sign that he still loved me. But, I don't think that is the case. It really hurts to think that the person YOU love and who you thought loved you, no longer does and I didn't even see it coming. I didn't see it coming. I suppose it would have been easier if we weren't getting along and we were getting distant, but it wasn't like that. He just up and left one day. I miss him, too much today.