I am finding it difficult to remain angry with him.

Yeah, I know I need to "let go" more. Anger would help nudge that along, I think.

I can see where this might very well be the "best" thing for me-the thing that pushes me out of my comfort zone and makes me grow and address my childhood issues.
But it hurts so much. And I miss him so much. But how can I be "mad" at someone just because they don't love me like a spouse should?

It breaks my heart and makes me feel a bit like a "loser", that somehow I am not good enough to love as more than a best friend. I feel flawed and rejected. I just wish I could be mad about it.

Me-43
H-46
M 12 yrs 7/09
T 15
2 grown kids
bomb 7/05/07
H moved out 8/04/07
11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling
Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D
End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing