Long and bumpy road

[blindsided1]

It's good to read about your experience. I feel somehow that if we are having sex, he is still connected to me and the OW doesn't mean that much to him. But, then he stops the sex talk for a little while and I get scared that he isn't interested in sex with me and I start to feel like he is not attracted to me and it hurts. Today is day three of not talking to him. We have never gone this long without talking. It makes me sad to think that he isn't even missing me or thinking of me. I just could never have imagined that after working so hard for a baby, he could just up and walk out on our family, that we finally had a chance to have, for some stranger that he knew a couple of weeks. It is taking a huge toll on my self-esteem and the memory of what I thought our love meant to each other. Did the phone calls and contact become more and more infrequent? Did it stay that way?