I decided to stop all first contact with my wife and she pretty much disappeared from my life for a month. I would only hear from her once a week and that was just a 10 minute phone call. I felt the same things that you are feeling now. I made a decision though that I think brought her back to a place where she now contacts me regularly and we actually do things together. I decided to use that time to really focus on myself and figure out what I want out of life. What it would truly take to make me happy. I did a lot of soul searching and reading to figure out how I could accomplish that. I thought that I had been happy with my wife and I was totally devastated when she left. I see now that I was relying on her for my happiness and you can't be truly happy when you live like that.
Don't wallow in self pity right now. It won't bring him back to you. If it did it would only be from guilt and that's not going to keep him around forever. Be strong. I'll say a prayer for you.
Peace, B
Me: 29 W: 28 T: 10 M: 7 No kids 2 Dogs and 1 Cat With Parents: 09/16/07 Apartment: 10/13/07 Back Home: ~2/16/2008