Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

I woke up this morning bawling, again. I am in a total funk right now. This is day 3 of not talking to him. We have never gone this long without talking EVER. I feel like he has just forgotten about me. Out of sight out of mind. It hurts like hell. I'm so sad right now. Could I really be that insignificant to him? I knew that if I pulled away, he would let me. I feel like I mean nothing to him. I don't know if I am doing the right thing. I just feel the distance growing between us. I'm afraid. Iam afraid that he will get use to not being with me or talking to me and I'll just be his Ex. I'm angry that he did this to me, to our family, to our life. And, it seems like it was so easy to just give up our family (that we worked so hard to create), for some stranger. This is why I look for reassurances. I feel like if he calls me or reaches out to me, he still cares. Three days? Not missing me much, is he? And, I don't know that he is wondering why I haven't called, if he were wondering wouldn't he call? I'm sure that many of you went through this. Didn't it scare you when the phone calls and contact became less and less frequent? Does it get better? Or do they just get use to not being around you or talking to you and go off into the sunset with their OP?