More Growing and Healing

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Frank,
I'm moved, saddened, by your post and want to reach out to you. I know you don't want or need pity, I'm not offering that at all. I think I offer something better. I understand (as well as another human can). I accept you, and what you feel. I've felt much of it.

damn, buddy, you've been through it. You are amazing, and strong. But I know you get tired of hearing how strong you are. I know you'd like to have someone take care of you for a change. You deserve it.

This is your chance, your time now, Frank. You see what's going on, better than most ever do. You feel your feelings, you're aware of them, you know what's happening. With just a few skills, you can live, really live. Now's your time.

Your W can be a part of it, or your life. I bet she'll be thrilled to be part of it. She doesn't have to be part of it. You get to choose. You might as well let her be part of it though. She, and you, have been through so much already.

I hope you go back to your C. If your house is on fire, you don't try to put it out yourself, you call the FD, and get help. If your golf swing is wrong, you get lessons. Life isn't any different.

But if you don't go to a C, for whatever reason, you can still find help. You're not alone. You've got to do it alone, but you've got support, and help.

I read a "meditaion" of sorts that brought me to tears. If I find it, I'll pass it on to you. It was about taking the child inside of you, holding him, telling him that it's OK, that you'll take care of him, that he is loved and accepted. Try it Frank. It works. You can "parent" yourself, your inner child. He is really there, as I think you know, and he needs it.

Life shits on us all the time. Much of it is luck, bad or good, and no reflection on our value as people. You define yourself, your value.

OK, I could go on. From the few posts of yours I've read, I know you are aware, intellegent, and that you feel. You don't need my advice.

Just want to let you know you are not alone. Rest here. You've got support. Many of us face the same questions, to greater or lesser degrees. This is the place to discuss such things.

Thanks, Frank, for sharing.