All Hope is lost/Help - Part 2

[Evie]

Still receiving constant emails/texts/calls.

I have taken to switching my mobile off. Had a very low day yesterday and lost sleep b/c i was so distressed. Went to yoga which I needed desperately and that helped me to calm down alot.

Found it very difficult to deal with the all the ski clothing all over my lounge floor ready to be packed for H & S's ski trip. I layed out casual clothing as H asked me to do for the boys.

This morning I replied to one of H's numerous emails and said I had found it extremely hard to see all the ski stuff laid out. He replied saying that I could have taken the boys with me when i go to visit D1 in France in January. I think he's missing the point. The point being that this should be our annual family holiday and it's not, i'm not going and i'm really down about it.

I've ignored more emails and calls from him.

H emailed not long ago, to say he had phoned the company up that they are travelling with to see if they could fit me in but they are fully booked. He suggested that I could have slept with one of the boys.

At least next week I won't have the constant emails or texts and can hopefully regain some emotional equlibriam.

It's our A tomorrow (just in case I haven't mentioned it!!!!)I will take the kids out for dinner to celebrate and spend on the joint card so H will know.

I shall make the most of the time next week when they're away to decorate the next bedroom for S1 to move into when he gets back from his holiday.

H actually paid me a compliment and said I had done a fantastic job on D2's bedroom. I am actually really pleased with it myself.

Any advice on this letter to H that i'm still thinking of sending? As i'm still really confused that H contacts me so much if he just wants to be 'friends'????

Bye for now

X Eve