So... I was a little rash in quitting cold turkey.. I'm having withdrawls!!
Honestly, I felt like I was spending a little too much time on here and not enough time on other things. I'll be toning it down a bit, but I'll stay here. Thanks to all the kind words.
I will update a bit:
W called the next day and apologized for her attitude the night before. She said she's on her "friend" and so she's extra emotional.
We had a long discussion over the subject.. again, I think she's starting to understand where I was coming from. I also think the idea of me seeing someone else has thrown her for a loop. She asked "Are you happy with this other person?" Now.. this is hard, because I don't want to lie.. I'm not really seeing anybody.. so I replied "I'm OK.. I'm not really looking for a serious relationship now.." Then she asked if we had kissed.. I told her I didn't want to share that info.. that got her a little upset, but we moved past it.
We did finally hit a subject I think we agreed on.. that we were playing the blame game. Now.. I have accepted and tried to understand all the issues I brought to the table. I made it clear that everytime we had a talk she was very quick to blame me without accepting any blame herself. We talked a little more. I basically told her I was happy being by myself. I was ready to move on alone.
Since then, W has been very chatty and playful. She calls me instead of OM first. She has asked me to watch the D's on Thursday which has recently been done by OM and her mom. Today she asked me to go with her and the D's to a pool party. It's for assistance with both D's, but she could've gotten OM to go I guess.
She did ask for a favor yesterday which I politely refused.
I think I'm treading in dangerous waters. She's testing a few things.. One to see how I've changed.. another to see if I'll bend over backwards for her again.. another to see how "real" this other person is.
The odd thing is, I'm at peace with all of this. I'm now much more confident that life will go on without her. I can be just as happy without her as I was with her. I guess I shouldn't say that.. I can be just as happy without her as I was with her before.
