not a peep

[Trixi]

I was quite excited when I left the rental. Spent time in the yard. Figured out where I would want to put some Christmas lights, where the bbq should go, etc.

I didn't make it to LNT or BB&B. I have been searching HI and LO for a duvet cover that I like- and the only one that I found (online) that I really like is $450+ just for the duvet cover. The flipping bedskirt is $195. It's crazy!! but what a gorgeous set.

When I look at these things, I sometimes have a hard time descerning whether I like something simply because *I* like it, or if there is still some influence from H. The good thing about H and I is that we had similar taste in decor. Both of us are more the Craftsman, Bungalow, Mission type of people, so it was fairly easy for us to pick furniture and whatnot. Oh, and he actually had opinions regarding the decorating-rather strong ones.

Anywho-I was thinking today about what H has put me thru. On the one hand, I am very angry and sad. On the other, I am just glad that he hasn't tried to screw me over and leave me in the lurch. When we got this second house, part of his motivation (unbeknownst to me) was it to be an investment and then when the kids graduated, we could get rid of our tenants, I would move back into our rental house and he would remain here in this house. He wanted to make sure I would have a place.

Earlier I checked the bank balance for the joint account and noticed he had used some $ to get tix for New York. After the checks I wrote cleared, that would leave $60 in the acct. So I sent him an IM and said "just so you know, once check X and Y clear, the joint acct will have $60." and do you know what he said back "Didn't we just get paid?" (Emphasis from me.) He just bought upgraded AAA for the me, DD and himself. Those are good qualities. Telling me that we could get back together in the future...not so sure about that 'quality'.