Long and bumpy road

[blindsided1]

You can share those milestones with me. It will give me something to look forward to. This is my first, so I have no idea what to expect. I still haven't gained any weight and I lost 12 lbs in the beginning when all this crap started. However, a couple of weeks ago we had the Internal ultrasound and the baby was swinging it's little nubby arms and kicking its little stubby legs. The Doctor said it was doing the watoosee (no idea how to spell it) for us. H said that was went it hit him and it hit him hard that we were having a baby. But, it still doesn't change things. He isn't home. He says he will always be there for baby and me. But, I kindly reminded him that he IS NOT. On my thread I was posting the question of whether going dark was a good idea for me. He complained that I didn't give him the attention he needed. I wonder if by not calling him, he feels like I am still not giving him attention. It seems like he isn't filling in the gaps that I am putting between us. I worry that he won't. I know it has only been 2 days since we have spoken, but pathetically that feels like a long time to me. Did your H let the space get bigger between the 2 of you? When did he start filling in the gap, if ever? I'd love to hear your take.

P.s. What is dh? I get the H, but what's the d?