It's been a year since the D, I need some help

[JMC]

I would be glad to have dinner with my X, but she won't

I am confused. In your first post it seemed to me that she had invited you to dinner.

I should have stayed active on this site and someone would have kept me from making all these mistakes.

Do not beat yourself up, it seems from other testimonials on this site that it is never too late. I have backslide numerous times (don't get me wrong, I am no success story) Going forward try and DB. If she does not have OP, it would seem there are better chances that she may one day be receptive.

I can't bear to think of the future alone or really with someone else because that is not how it is supposed to be. It makes all the happy memories of my family hurt too.

I feel the same way. Not so much worrying about being alone, but I simply miss my life the way it was. I am not suggesting everything was perfect, but it does not have to be like this (separated and soon to file for divorce). I miss family dinners, parties, etc.. - especially this time of year. I now look forward to the new year so that the memories of seasons past will not be so prevalent.

Others have used the phrase "let go, and let God." Not sure how we are to do this, but sometimes I find peace if I keep telling myself this over and over when I get emotional (still almost once a day 10 months after she moved out).

Good luck Tom.