small things have changes a little, but as the time span from the EA ending lengthens he gets worse and worse. we are back to the (example)"you know I'm not getting the decorations out until this house is totally clean, right"
well, that could be taken either way. it could be taken as being domineering... or it could be taken as simply him standing up for something that you agreed(?) to do, and havent done.
no. it's not something we agreed on. It's him deciding that the house wasn't clean enough for him, so he's going to withold something he knows that I want until he gets what he wants. He could care less about the decorations and stuff and doesn't seem to want to help me much, so I just have to work harder to clean. That's what I did this weekend. Maybe we'll get the decorations out this week sometime.
I'm trying to focus how i'm feeling now on how he's treating me now. I think the hardest thing for me to get through is that when all the past stuff was going on is when i stopped feeling for him. I think for me its a forgiven, but not forgotten thing. I've forgiven him. I used to hate him for it. I've moved a long way from there. Its a little hard not knowing what caused it. Maybe that's what i'm struggling with. The not knowing. For him, he knows why i was talking to someone else. for me, i don't know what happened that caused him to start treating me so much worse. My history teachers used to always say, "those who don't know their past are doomed to repeat it." I know why i had the EA, i don't know if even he knows for sure why he was treating me like that. (if all that makes any sense. hehe)
I think that's a great way you put the conversation. I'll try that tonight. I really appreciate your help and insight.
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