WAW does not want to try

[wawpioneer]

I understand I think,

It is just so hard to continue to work hard on this when I expected her to put forth some sort of effort. Expectations can be a killer. I will try to keep working on my GAL techniques. She says that right now she just sees my life consumed with church and our R and nothing else. Not sure what that means. I feel like we need to spend time together but she is not letting me know how much is too much. I agree that she is still on the fence here. It is discouraging. I am just going to have to accept that we are working at her pace and at her rules. Unfortunately, her rules and goals are completely hidden from me and they are so intangible. How can she feel different if she is not willing to put any effort in to create a change in her attitude and her pespective on how to put effort into our M.

I am venting here a little bit. I guess my plan is to not bring up anymore R talks and to just "act as if" I am happy with her coming home and being here. Eventually though I am going to want more.