Taking it day by day...

[Hurtin4certain]

Haha! Joie, I already had that planned!

[LL44]

I hear ya on the 'back and forth' thing with wanting our spouses back. I wonder, do they do this about us? I bet they do...

Loved The Bee Movie, my D5 did too. D3 was only in it for the snacks.......

[Hurtin4certain]

So Ive decided that seeing my W today when we exchange our D is too stressful for me. Im going to take the night off and let my mom drop her off.

I think the added space will help me in detaching, once I begin to feel a little stronger, I will start taking my D to exchange with W again.

I just know that right now Im not in the right frame of mind to "act as if" Im doing well with everything that has occured in the past month.

Didnt sleep well again last night... so tired today.

I hope you all have a good day.

[LL44]

That's a great idea, hurtin. Nothing wrong with that decision. You are taking your D to your wife, so you will have time alone, right? This will be good for you. Take the time for yourself.

Its so hard, isn't it? This whole thing is soooo hard!

[Hurtin4certain]

Yeah...this is the hardest thing Ive ever had to do in my life. I dont remember her leaving me hurting this bad 2 years ago.

I just ordered some weightlifting supplements so I can get back in the gym and dedicate myself to improving not only my appearance but my mental health.

Im also going to start going to the tanning salon.. I can get pretty pastey during the winter months lol.

My goal is to have my six pack back by the summer ( I let myself go once I became depressed and ate nothing but junk food for quite some time) so I can visit my friend in California and hang out on the beach with the babes.

Damnit.. Im a good guy and a good father and I will find happiness one way or another. I just need to get out in the world again... one of my good friends from work is single and he constantly goes out and does stuff, gonna start tagging along with him.

One thing Im trying to avoid if possible is the bar scene, its definately not a place where I would want to meet someone. Go figure, my W met OM in a bar.

[Hurtin4certain]

So when I said goodbye to my D today, I told her to call me if she starts struggling again at her mom's house. SHe told me "sometimes mommy wont let me call you when Im upset".

WTF!!! My W can be such a heartless, vindictive, selfish person. Its getting to the point that Im starting to think she is an unfit mother!!!

SHe knows her D s struggling with all the decisions that she has so selfishly made in regards to OM moving in. SHe doesnt give a damn about how that makes D feel or how it affects her. D is suffering from headaches and nausea everyday now.

How can a mother do that to her own kids? Hurt me, but dont hurt your own flesh and blood!!!

Cant wait to talk to the lawyer on Wednesday, she has the reputation of being a real Bull-dog and fights nasty when she has to.

This isnt what I wanted, but if my D's emotinal well being is being jeapordized, I will divorce W in a heartbeat to make sure my D is ok.

[Hurtin4certain]

So my W is flying her dad in from Texas for Xmas.. she very rarely ever sees him. Im sure she wants her dad to meet her new bf. This is all moving so fast guys.

Im a little worried that she is seeing OM as marriage material.

Any thoughts?

[ford]

Heyya Hurtin

I think all these crazy bastards see whoever they're in fantasy land with, as marriage material.

it doesn't change anything. try and imagine her already married, maybe that will help you detach.

gotta get your focus off of her

eaasier said than done, but you can do it!

[Hurtin4certain]

Its just crazy how these WAW's get addicted to the OP like its crack.

[Hurtin4certain]

You know something pretty crazy... everytime I call my D I know my W is recording our phone calls. I can hear her push the record button.

I remember W recording my calls when we were going through the big D 2 years ago.

Crazy. She is completely looney now.