Why can't I do this....

[houndfan]

Thanks for the continued feedback.

So this weekend, I think that we may have made some forward progress. First of all, at no point was I asked ot leave for any reason, and there were no fights, bickering etc. Secondly, we really did Sunday right. Knowing that this time of the year is a big stressor for her, we kept the Christmas tree buying and decorating very simple. But, I tried to encourage her to let us buy the biggest nicest tree we could find.

For some reason, just that alone made her feel a little different, and she finally told me as much. The tree is so big and full it makes our living room look small!

Anyway, after we had it in, up, and fully decorated she turned to me gave me a great hug and kissed me! Yep, after two months I got a small peck on the lips! She told me she loved me and thanked me for being nice to her for the weekend. If you rewind to last Sunday we had a similar experience, but at the end I was asked to leave. This time, when it was all over I was not, in fact she asked me up to sleep with her again.

We slid back a little when we were laying in bed when she told me she was not sure she had the same kind of love for me that I had for her. She told me that she does not have the infatuation butterfly kind of love for me and she is not sure that we will make it with what she has. I just let those comments hang there and appreciated that I am still hanging in there in this journey.

We feel asleep... this morning she got up early to do some work. I got up later to help get S7 ready for school. In the process she texted OM in front of me to ask his some questions about work. As she was doing so she was putting him down telling me what a loser he was etc. In fact, I actually think she was being genuine. Anyway, got ready to leave with S4 to take him to school and she and I had a great hug and another little kiss.

Couple of little phone calls later until the writting of this post. Anyway, I am not getting my hopes too high because I am sure that like Braveheart said at any moment I could slip or she could slam me for something to justify. But, I really think that we may be working toward something here. I would not say that we are piecing yet, but it's better than being told that I am a complete POS! We go back to MC tomorrow so I am curious to see what that will bring.