So after spending a good Saturday night with W, she explained she needed to be with the girls. She has a good support group of girls, unfortunetly they are all divorcing. There are 4 of them, one had her husband tragically murdered recently, the other 2 have physically abusive husbands. I asked W what am I, she said they think I'm nuts and should go home to my H. So off she went to Margaritte night and a Sex in the City marathon.
W shows up at the house Sunday morning in the same clothes she left in and totally hung over. Sorta funny since she claims I'm this huge boozer, which I was when she left, but not much anymore. So I take care of her and she sleeps most of the day in front of the fire, while I do work and play with our S.
After she got up we went sledding and had a great time. S was loving it, but didn't like the cold all too much. She then said that she still didn't feel good, could we just rent some movies get a pizza and stay in. Which is fine by me. I tell her that I have to do some grocery shopping, and she says she wants to stay and take a bath. New step! Well as she is running the water, S rips open the door, and she didn't bother to shut, but I kept my distance and didn't take any sneaky peaks. The whole time she is talking to me.
When I return from the store, W is wearing my boxers and a t-shirt of mine. We order dinner, and after that get S down. Lots of backrubbing and me giving her foot massage, but she kept her distance on the couch. Had a great time until we started watching the Waitress. Haha, should have read the back, it's all about affairs. We turned it off, neither one of us feeling comfortable. Haha!
She spent the night, but wanted to stay on the couch, I didn't push. However I did offer her the bed and said I would take the couch. She said she was still awckward towards our bed, so I let her stay out on the couch.
This morning I left them in the house, and kissed her goodbye when I left for work. Hope that isnt' a mistake, come home and everything is gone!! Well someone has to extend some trust some time, so might as well be me.
She is having a hard time understanding how I would want to be with her after all of this. Thinks she is now an immoral person, and I deserve a girl that is a good person. Lots of negative talk on her behalf about herself. She is pretty disguisted with herself right now and really letting herself take it. Just listened and validated. A few things I told her I didn't agree with, like the immoral thing. Just said I don't think people are inherintly immoral or moral, I think they either choose the moral choice or not each time.
Overall, an amazing weekend. Felt like a family. Lots of compliments from her. She also said, that the biggest change she has noticed is that since I had the Thyroid fixed I'm not on edge all the time, and so much more mellow. Said she really feels so much more comfortable around me. No expectations, I'm sure a pull back is coming, but I just keep acting "as if," and keep my head held high.
