Thanks Jenny, I know I am a good person. Just H makes me feel like I'm horrible even though he says I'm not.
I was just reading some stuff I printed out about detaching. I need to start living it. I found 8 signs that our relationship is toxic. 1. H is emotionally unavailable 2. H is non-reienforcing for me 3. I am overly dependent 4. H has the power to impact my feelings about myself 5. I am a chronic fixer 6. I have a fantasy that H will change or come around 7. H won't forgive or forget 8. My needs/wants are being ignored
I really need to GAL. I told H this morning that he can stay at the house tonight with the girls and I am making arrangements to stay elsewhere. H thanked me to which I did not respond. I don't want to say you are welcome or its ok because that would be a lie. I had to call MIL to ask if I can stay there. She was very supportive and I was surprised that she didn't ask more questions or bash her son. I will probably get that tonight. I wish there was another place to stay, but that is it for now. My closest relative is an hour away. I should have packed up and moved over the summer after the bomb dropped.
