What Now

[grdn24grl]

slowly,
he would (could) not give specifics to what or whom, but said he has been hearing for a while "why are you with her" (that was the only phrase he came up with). Unfortunately I don't have contact with "our" friends anymore, they're mostly people from the fire department and wives and/or girlfriends. I actually did run into some of them at a softball game and one of the wives came up and asked where I had been so I gave her a little summary of what was going on and about the "issue" thing and she reassured me that no one had "issues" with me and that I get along with everyone, and am quiet, and that he was probably just saying that to be ugly and make himself feel better.
As far as changes:
1) I have lost weight (not that I really needed to)
2) I have started going to the gym (to tone up)
3) I feel more self confident (my esteem and self image have always been lacking)
4) I have been attending a women's group meeting (learning a lot about myself)
5) I have been going to the beach (something that I never really wanted to do, the whole bathing suit in public thing)
6) I have been going out with friends
7) In the beginning I was majorly pursuing, I have implemented the LRT, so I have not contacted him, when he has called I have been upbeat and positive - which he has noticed.

I'm tryng my best to GAL.