I know what you are saying, I have to let h go to fla, I cannot stop him, I cannot tell him what to do or not to do. H won't listen to me anyway. You see that he still does things with me and this is where my confusion lies. He want contact, and wants to do things and then he spins off, and then does not want do anything. and pulls the cr&p like saturday night, then today puts up a tree?
Guilt was speaking today. Truly was. I wish honesty would start to talk, but i know I am asking for something impossible right now.
I am still standing by my belief that I don not want a divorce. . All i can do is just let go and put it all out on the table, tell him if he talks I'm sorry you feel that way about things. And just put the flower on top of the water and let it float away. Hoping the waves will bring it back to shores of my heart, and not take it out to sea to be lost forever.
Hugs and love bear
Me 42-Him 40 T20yrs Married 16yrs 2/06 H- "not sure if i want to be married anymore" 6/07 H-"I'm not happy" 9/07 Admits affair & OW 12/08 I moved out 12/09 still waiting for divorce
