Well, I have shown her I am detached again today. Picked up 5D, WAW seemed really down. She talked about some puppies that have been coming in the yard. Then as I was leaving, she followed me out in the yard presumably to watch the dog she could've just called inside, I said, "oh by the way, I keep forgetting to tell you I've had a phone for about a month and the number is blah blah when you want to talk to 5D." She seemed surprised. Then she initiated a conversation regarding finances. Part of this was about cell phone bills. And the other part of which was about 5D medical insurance she pays. I said we would need to look into this because she is asking for money that I have been taxed upon, whereas WAW's portion is pretaxed. I also mentioned that perhaps we could swap insurances every other year or something. I then got to spin it into my excitement of looking into online jobs and may just get a different better insurance for 5D. She specifically mentioned a good company. I then mentioned a rebate that suppose to be mine but will be sent to her and 5D lunches I've been paying to subtract from top. Then she repeated about cell phone and then said she did not have any money again this month and has not paid the rent yet. Missed a great chance to empathize with her. Because of double billing that occurred, she mentioned it again how we both used up all our minutes...and I said, "yeah that was sick of me to do that, I am done with that." This really validates her feeling that I am sick and the way I said it really showed that I was done hurting, calling friends over her, especially when she knows for last 2-3 weeks I have not. But I did feel for her because of her rent sitch, so, I left her a voice mail about an hour later to suggested she pay for next months lunches for 5D(avoiding all this subtracting junk), and I would just send the money by check, wire-transfer, whatever,...hope you have a good day. Probably should not have done that but no harm.
GAL 1) Went to church this morning only to come home and see that my best fishing pole and 3 tackle boxes were gone. At least $1000 gone. 2) Family get together this afternoon was fun. I was not feeling well after church and mainly relaxed. 3) Very hard to find something to do in very rural area. Heck the dance class won't start back up until after New year's that started thanksgiving. Perhaps, find bigger church and do something there. 4) Really thinking getting a new job would help. Beyond my interview Monday, I am going to work toward this goal. I'd love an online job and be able to farm a bit.
Gonna focus on #4, 5D, and really just leave her and anyone she knows alone. Next time I have to see her is 24th. Like you said if she wants to look, she will. Let her go, if she comes back I always had her, if she doesn't I never did.
