I need support

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I wish I could be optomistic. Every dealing with him is torture. This was all his doing - but then asks to use my pay pal account for an example. After ranting on about wanting independence. I told him to write a check out of his own account. Got mad at me. He started this, not me. I am just following "his" rules. But he only wants his rules when they benefit him. Then says he is going to get his own computer. So he won't have to deal with me, of course. He has less than $1000 to his name-literally. So I know someone offered a hand me down. I keep telling myself not to sweat the small stuff but so far it doesn't work. Everything hurts. S 11 went over there on Sat - my day - for the 3rd week in a row. ANd then wanted to go over Sunday as well. I flipped out. Only time I really get to spend any time with him and he wants to go w/H. Arghhhh. They just left for the night. So here I am alone again. Life sucks so bad. If there is a good side to all of this I would like to hear it.