I don't know what has been wrong with me the last couple of days. The financial aspect of everything is really weighing on me. I have a copy of H's settlement offer and it is not acceptable to me, not even close.
I reread the information from the attorney that I went to see when I first got the bomb. I was probably comatose when we spoke, but it does say on the paperwork that he has a retainer fee of several thousand dollars.
I don't have this kind of money.
I feel like I should say something to H along the lines of: I read over the proposal you gave me. I will need to consult with an attorney, but the retainer is X amount and I don't have this. I am saving towards it, but it will take time. I just wanted you to know that I am not ignoring this - this is just the situation that I am in.
Even typing this makes me cry. We did not have money problems before. He does not have money problems now. I did not have money problems years ago when I was working at a great job.
But he has contol over everything now. He has been generous so far, paying everything.
But it makes me beyond sad/angry that I have to save what little money I do earn so I can get an attorney to help him with this D. I know it is to protect me, but I am really struggling with this. If he wants to get a D, let him pay for it all.
