When I got divorced I stopped going to church for awhile and later tried new churches.
I couldn't bear to sit and cry in church. So I understand that.
I hope you keep going though...I wish I had.
I know doing nothing will feel terrible. It really isn't nothing though. I believe in my heart, if you let him alone, he will eventually be back with you. If you give him things to resist, it might not go that way.
Pray each time, before you do or say anything.
Your heart is different than emotions even if it doesn't 'feel' that way. You don't have to obey your emotions.
But you can go with what you really know to be true. So you can be honest. And should be honest. But you don't have to 'let loose'.
It wouldn't hurt if you weren't there waiting for him. If you just went to your aunt's . Go where people are willing to love you and take care of you.
I've got this nasty cold too. I have a few sips of amaretto, along with a nasty zinc cold tablet. But those nasty tablets usually work to shorten the cold for me.
If you can go get pampered, do so.
I like you so much. I think you are wonderful and have a great heart. I feel we have a lot in common. If you can shock him, I think it will work for you, honey.
Saying a prayer for you. I also asked the Carmelite nuns to pray for you.
It will be ok. If God is for us, who can be against.
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001
