So.. last night was cool. Spent the evening/night at my folks place. Hung out with a family friend (female.. married.. \:\( ) I haven't seen in a while. Yet another twisted R that should have been. Nothing happened.. I wouldn't be a hypocrite.

Got home this morning and for some reason had a feeling that OM and his kids would be attending the Santa pic trip this afternoon. I was prepared to not go if that was the case. Pinged W and asked what time we were meeting and if OM and his kids would be there. She called and I admit I was in a short mood. Once I found out he wasn't going, I felt a little better. Other than the fact that they obviously spent the night at his house.

So I texted her and apologized for being snippy.. I have a ton on my mind. She responded with "Don't be afraid to talk to me."

So.. we get to the mall and it's going to be an hour/hour and a half to see Santa. So we took the D's to the play area and talked. She mentioned something about getting D5 into dance. I told her we needed to figure out the separation agreement due to finances and we could do that. She said "So you're ready to sign the official papers?" I said "No.. but the separation agreement is the next step." I think it ticked her off.. she called and left a message for her L.. only because she said "We'll get it started.." I told her that I had been working with my L for almost a month now.. her L is dragging it out.

So she again asked me what was going on.. I decided to test the waters.. I told her that I missed her. She said she missed me to. She said "Well.. you are seeing someone aren't you?" I didn't really answer the question.. I said "I still miss you"

She said that she wished I would open up to her.. that was one of the reasons she wasn't happy with us. I told her it was hard.. that it hurt to be friendly/intimate with her to only have her go spend the weekend with him.

I think it may have really set in.. She didn't argue which is the opposite of what normally happens. She looked sad.

D's took a great pic with Santa... they are photography pros. W still looked sad when we went separate ways.

We did have a good hug when we first met.. she mumbled something about not meaning to give me such a long hug, but she couldn't help it or something like that.

So.. who knows. I'm starting to be more comfortable without her. There would still be much much much to work on, but I feel like this may be a final stand for now.

We'll see how it goes.

Happy Sunday all!!