Bear...I'm struggling right now with feeling like this is the end also. All signs seem to point that way. But I am CHOOSING to believe it is not. It is what makes letting go a little easier. I believe this is a bump in the road NOT the end of the road. H may beleive it is over. He may even believe that I believe it is over. But I know in my heart that he must go down this road and complete his own journey for us to even have a chance.
Keep focusing on yourself and try not to get discouraged. Easier said than done I know. Do what SG is telling you...it is your best bet. But try not to think that ANYTHING is going to get you immediate results. It won't. Even if it did, I'm sure it wouldn't last and that isn't what you want either.
If you get the urge to speak to him again or pour any more out to him...picture his back walking away from you. Picture that is exactly what those words are doing...driving him away. Hopefully that will stop you.
You have every right to feel how you feel and he deserves to hear it. BUT, if it will have the reverse effect of what you want, WHY DO IT!?!
You'll be great today. I'm thinking about you. J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
