Separated and hating it.

[LuvMyHusband]

hi there,
Thank you for your responses. I don't want him to let me go, I guess I want to hear something positive out of him. Everything is so confusing. I just don't know what to think. I did start rereading the DR. I am finally to the point where I can just let go and give him space. It's been a long awful trip. I guess I should take heart that he hasn't moved his stuff out. He's been living out of one suitcase for the last few months. Nor has he made any effort to take more with him when he visits.

There has been a lot of serious damage done during our M too, by both of us. In a way, I am glad it's come to a head. I feel like my eyes have been opened and I know exactly what I want, know what to do and what not to do. I most definitely know what I want in my R.

He says he is waiting to see changes in me. I guess by his saying that he doesnt' feel there is anything that he needs to change. I am trying to focus solely on myself now and am making changes, not for him but for me. I guess time will tell. He's stuck and not moving but atleast he's not moving backward.

He is supposed to come for Christmas. He is living with his parents out of state. It's about 10 to 11 hours away.