Is there any love left there at all for your W Mark?
Love and hate are very closely linked IMHO. Or are you indifferent and numb to her most of the time?
I have grown indifferent, probably as a defense mechanism. I am indifferent to her, but I know that our reconciliation is what's best for the kids.
I know we can make it, and be a happy couple. And I really believe that she knows it to. She is very frightened, though. She fears that I will reject her if she were to open the door. And I may indeed reject her if, in the event she were to return, I believe that she is not prepared to make changes in herself to make our marriage work.
She continues to say, "Let's move on." But she does nothing about it. She is all talk. She began preparing for the divorce in May. And in July she said she was ready to file. In August she saw an attorney. In October, she saw a different attorney. In early October, she came to me and said she wants to file before the first of November. And here we are in December, telling me she wants to "move on."
She said it best: If she really wanted to do something, she would have done it already.
