As I said I am trying to detach but I slip up.

Today is H's birthday. Yesterday night at about 11 he went up to bed and came down at around 12.30 for a smoke. I thought it was odd but didnt think anything of it until this morning. Sure enough, when I checked the redial numbers, he had made a call last night.

This morning I said to him, that I know he called his girlfriend last night. He said, why do you spy on me? I said if there was nothing to spy on why would I need to look?

I pushed albeit in calm controlled tones and he basically let on that he had looked at a website on how to apply for divorces and that next year he wants to apply for a divorce on 'unreasonable grounds'.

The fact that he doesnt even want to wait for a two year separation tells me that he wants to divorce asap and wants to marry ow soon. H turned 37 today and is conscious that he is not getting any younger. Ow is 27.

more later. gotta get breakfast on.