Time for honesty & truth for a new beginning

[phbear316]

SG

I feel he is walking out the door one way or the other. H has to know how I feel he needs to hear what he is doing to me.

I had to tell him how i feel. There was not raised voices during this conversation, it was a normal toned conversation, no yelling, even very little tears on my part. Only toward the end did i start to cry.

SG- if i'm wrong i am wrong, h has to know what is in my soul. call it a last ditch effort on my part. If he is gone he is gone. I have to try for not trying is killing me more than you know.

SG I know what you are saying I do not want this to be over with H and I. But i don't know why today was the day that presented it self for me to put it all out on the table. it is all or nothing for me right now.

If h wants back he will have to make the next move. What do i do about tomorrow?

I dont want to give in or give up, h things this is just a fun ride for him best of both worlds. no.... sorry h you need to realize what you are doing.

my heart is on the silver platter ready and waiting. If he chooses to take if off and stomp all over it, its ok, i will pick it up and dust if off. I;m not letting go I won't let go

bear

SG please help me