Time for honesty & truth for a new beginning

[phbear316]

Jenny

I put myself out today, H has to know how I feel from my soul. I don't want to give up, I want my h for ever with me not her

I thought maybe he would take her to the wedding I did not think he would stay the night with her. Thats what kills me, the wedding ok, the overnight fuc*&ing her more thatn I can handle right now, I know he fu*&&s her but I thought maybe he would not disrespect me. He still lives at home with me, I am still his wife I thought he would come home to our house. Not in bed with me like I wish everytnight but home here. This overnight is killing me. As i sit here balling my eyes out. knowing he is loving someone other than me.

Its hard to deal with the fact that he is with her right now I am so beyond drunk right now its amazing how I am typing this, This is not how I wanted it to be with us. I hate myself for letting this happen to us, I hate this whole thing rignt now, more than anyone knows, I feel its all my fault oh my god what have i done.

I hurt so much right now you have no idea.

help me get thru tomorrow