Long and bumpy road

[Startingover2]

I got another text awhile ago. "please answer me. I am worried"

Yeah right. Worried? I do text back Im fine. He says to let him know if I need anything and he wishes things were different.

Wow. He acts like the choices I made are keeping him away. I don't necessarily believe him anyway. He might just be saying that to keep the carrot dangling. Thats a bad sign when you don't trust the sincerity of thier words.

I am feeling down. Looks like I will be raising this baby on my own for real. I am 42 years old. Who is ever going to want to date a women my age with a young child? Most men my age have older kids now and who wants to start over? I feel so hopeless. Just me and baby and my other kids.

Why are weekends so hard? Its tough during the week, but not like this. Maybe its because I know dh is probably living it up somewhere while I sit here 6 1/2 mos. pregnant and alone.